From the depths of Oscar Wilde

This is not funny, but it is beautiful.

Oscar Wilde is well-known for his witty, Irish humor. When I set out to read this letter which he wrote to his lover while in prison,

I didn’t expect to love him just as much – if not more – without his usual witticisms. His suffering, his regret, and his brutal honesty with himself are all here, in “De Prefundis” for everyone to see.

“The gods had given me almost everything. But I let myself be lured into long spells of senseless and sensual ease. I amused myself with being a FLANEUR, a dandy, a man of fashion. I surrounded myself with the smaller natures and the meaner minds. I became the spendthrift of my own genius, and to waste an eternal youth gave me a curious joy.

Tired of being on the heights, I deliberately went to the depths in the search for new sensation. What the paradox was to me in the sphere of thought, perversity became to me in the sphere of passion. Desire, at the end, was a malady, or a madness, or both. I grew careless of the lives of others. I took pleasure where it pleased me, and passed on. I forgot that every little action of the common day makes or unmakes character, and that therefore what one has done in the secret chamber one has some day to cry aloud on the housetop.

I ceased to be lord over myself. I was no longer the captain of my soul, and did not know it. I allowed pleasure to dominate me. I ended in horrible disgrace. There is only one thing for me now, absolute humility.”

The essay Dorian Gray gives an interesting take on Oscar Wilde's infamous protagonist.
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  • Kleitia

    S’te le bota, zoti, etj. te zhytesh ne “depths” qe zgjedh vete per te ndjere “new sensation”. Zhytja e vertete i erdhi ne burg sic e tregon edhe kjo leter qe, per mua, duhet marre si nje moment pendimi, ndryshimi por i pjesshem dhe i perkohshem. S’do te doja qe vuajtja t’e kete ndryshuar kuptimin e gjithckaje perpara.

    • joravaso

      Une mendoj se njerezit mund te kene vetem “momente pendimi” dhe “ndryshime te pjesshme”, pra jo pendime te perhershme dhe ndryshime te plota. Ashtu si e ke thene edhe ti, kjo do te shvleresonte cdo gje qe ke bere para momentit te pendimit. Vuajtja e Wilde ne kete leter eshte shume e madhe. E pare nga ana tjeter, vuajtje si pasoje e jetes prej “dandy” eshte – ne nje lloj menyre – prape “luks”

      • WWH

        muhabet shoqesh, me sa duket e ka zene frika (efekte normale te paradoksit te hedonizmit). “s’e le bota”, apo thjesht paradoksi i hedoniszmit? per mua paradox i hedonizmit: “we fail to attain pleasures if we deliberately seek them.”. ky paradox aktivizohet sa here qe barazojme “pleasure” me “happiness”.

        • joravaso

          Paradoksi ekziston dhe eshte e vertete qe pleasure does not equal happiness. Por pleasure eshte nje pjese e mire e happiness. Pendimi eshte nje pjese e mire e pleasure. Pendimi me duket se eshte i shkaktuar nga individi (sepse asnje kenaqesi nuk mjafton) por edhe nga bota ose shoqeria, e cila ne pergjithesi ndeshkon pleasure seekers. Besoj jane te dy layers. Gjithsesi, pendimi mbas pleasure i bie te jete i pashmangshem. Pendimi qe nuk ke ndjekur pleasures eshte po ashtu i pashmangshem. Ne fund te fundit, vetem se pendohesh, nuk do te thote qe nuk ke qene happy ne ato momente. Meqenese lumturia konstante nuk ekziston, pleasures jane nje lloj “approximation” i lumturise.

          • Kleitia

            Po, dhe une, mesa kam mesuar dhe jetuar deri tani, nuk njoh ndonje lloj “lumturie” tjeter.

          • WWH

            Kjo qe ke pershkruar duket si nje rrugice drejt ezaurimit dhe s’ka te beje me “happiness”! “pleasure” – nuk eshte stabel dhe kur mbaron gjeneron nje situate neutrale ose te pakendshme (jo pendim). “pleasure” kerkon gjithmone nje entitet te ambjentit per tu aktivizuar, dhe pas nje fare kohe entiteti qe ka gjeneruar “pleasure” behet neutral ose i neveritshem (s’ka pendim).
            “Happiness” nuk eshte nje sekuance e nderprere fragmentesh te “pleasure”, “pleasure nuk eshte pjese e “happiness”. “happiness eshte gjendje, varet nga 50%genet, 10%rrethanat dhe 50%aktiviteti mendor.
            Pendimi s’ka lidhje me “pleasure” dhe “happiness” pendimi eshte thjesht kur ne krahasojme nje vendim qe kemi marre me idealin (te gjithe ne kemi nje entitet ideal te cilin e krahasojme gjithmone me vendimin e gabuar dhe ketu krijohet konflikti).
            Nje zgjidhje mund te jete te fshish entitet ideale dhe dogmat dhe shkruash realitetin.

  • Sier Pino Vaso

    Oscar Wilde e ka thene vete qe gabimeve tona u kemi vene emrin ” eksperience”.Dhe sa me shume gabime te besh,duke eksperimentuar,aq me shume pendime do te kesh ne jete…….1